Review and Renewal

I've been feeling rather mortal lately.  Yeah, not sick but frail.  

We are all going to die.  It's the end of life as we know it in this time-space continuum.  I've seen good deaths and I've seen some not so good.  I don't fear death, as my friend Tom W. says, I do fear what leads up to it.  

And honestly, I fear losing control of how all this will play out.  In fact there is no ability to control how life plays out including the end of life.  

So I am reopening Diverse Mind now to serve as a journal of this part of the journey.

I joyfully add that my life is just fine the way it is and always has been. I would not change any of it.  I've come to see my life as a whole rather than a mishmash of isolated incidences, some outstanding and some truly cringe-worthy.  The good outweighs the lapses from goodness.  The bad is just that, bad choices and behaviors that adversely affect others as well as myself.  I don't have the perspective to judge myself; I leave it to our Creator, our Spirit of the universe, our Mother Nature, Whomever.

I am living a joyful life and I am in no hurry to leave.  I also choose to accept that end of life stuff is going to take some work, some courage, and some brass ones to meet my wishes. I want to make choices for my life care in spite of medicos, insurers and governing forces like Medicare. I may think differently about medical care than those soul crushing 'health care' forces.

But it is my life, my wellness choices, and my body!  Hang on folks; we are in for a good ride.  

Whew!  I already feel better.